I have to do a follow up blog post to my last because God has been moving in big ways, and I have to confess my lack of trust. And to address a huge things a lot of adoptees struggle with: control. Provision The day after I posted my last blog https://mercyandhealing.wordpress.com/2021/08/02/feeling-lost/ my husband and […]

The Emotional Toll As an adoptee, the search for siblings is complex and full of every emotion thinkable. I hope to just offer one small window into such a complex topic, from my perspective. I grew up with my half birth sister, and I always knew I had a lot of birth siblings out there. […]

The Beginning My birth mom did not have a father’s name listed on my birth certificate, and the man’s name she put on the court paperwork ended up not being him. I am doing the first, and what feels like the only step I can, to try and figure out who this mystery guy is. […]

Rejected, discarded, given up on, worthless and unlovable. These thoughts screamed in my mind like a racecar circling out of control. Here I am, the day before my birthday, experiencing this overwhelming sense of sadness. On these special days, I should be joyful. Instead, I’m stirred with anxiety. As the day progressed, sensations of sadness […]